Sometimes we can rebel against these obvious gifts of love like a rebellious teenager who longs to be free, to be independent, to make their own decisions regardless of the consequences. To go against authority, to join the pack mentality, to be 'the angry young man or woman'. I read somewhere once that we are not adults until we are over 30 years - this is when the brain rewires itself chemically to prepare us for the next layer in our life-stream. I am not sure if this is true, but as one of those rebellious young people I often recognise this in young people I come across occasionally. It is at this age between our childhood and 30 years we can make a lot of mistakes. Our ego is at a heightened level and we think we know everything. Our mistakes come to determine our lives in many ways until we are ready to let go or forgive ourselves especially if we make big mistakes. We move to another level.
When we are ready to forgive our mistakes and the mistakes of others we suddenly go to the realisation of the duality of the illusionary world and attempt to take the steps to rectify it. However human being tend to want to know why and how the why effected or still effect them - they need to understand - and are not open to being told and expected to believe. Thus begins the journey of researching karma and the validity of forgiveness and service and finding the true self.
Part 2 to follow.